My baby Sydney turned 4 months recently and with that came new milestones that are wonderful new additions but without question the very best addition would be a full nights sleep. My son, now 2, was a wonderful sleeper and slept through the night early on but that was my mission, get that baby to sleep. Why? Because I feel unbalanced and agitated when I don't sleep. I look haggard and that makes me feel even worse. I think after having a baby most women just want to feel themselves again but how can you? You have gained weight, are probably exhausted from giving birth, then you are up all hours with a baby and if you have other small children forget about sleeping during the day, you have spit-up on you most of the time and taking the time to properly get ready just does not exist. But magically you begin to sleep again and all starts to settle back down. First you get some sleep, then you start to look a bit better, can begin thinking more clearly, function in a capacity that allows you to feel more like you and that is what we want, right? We want to loose the baby weight, fit into our clothes, sleep, be able to eat a warm meal or have a cup of coffee, take a shower/bath alone, relax, read a book, have a glass of wine/beer, think we look attractive, think our significant others think we are attractive, laugh and enjoy what is an amazing time in life. And although we all know things have changed, there is easily a list of things that could stay the same.
I recall that the first night I woke-up after a full nights sleep. I felt like I had been in a coma. I felt restful and clear but then in an area of the earth where the sun shines infrequently, the sun came out and it poured over me and gave me just what I needed, a boost but more likely vitamin D. Things now seem so flawless in what I am aware is very flawed situation. I still don't eat warm meals as I am trying to feed my son, or nurse my daughter and it is rare that I shower alone but I can now slip back into my jeans and t-shirts and I joyously celebrate my husbands arrival home with a glass of wine or beer, my son affords me a cup of warm coffee while he eats breakfast and by all accounts I laugh whenever I can!
