Green with Envy

I have always thought of myself as a middle of the road kind of person, I like to be informed but practical about choices but after having children things have become so much more difficult when it comes to the choices I make on a daily basis. Cleaning products have changed drastically in my home, going from whatever worked best to all natural products, the truth being that chemicals clean better but since children roll on the floor, shower, touch the sink and sometimes the toilet, I compromise. I cloth diaper 2 children who must have a sense of when those nasty little things go in the washer because they immediately poop, so we can smell the hint of poo in the nursery until 2 days later when we wash again. I buy organic and try to read labels for the healthiest choices possible and fix all my own baby food. But honestly I am jealous of the mom who just does thing out of ease. There are days when it takes me hours to make dinner because I try to make everything from scratch, including breads, which is crazy honestly but I feel guilty if I don't try to do the best thing I can for my family. I spend hours debating purchases based on safety for my children rather than just buying what might be the easiest or what is at a local store, again exhausting. I wondered today as I sat to drink a cup of coffee and write this blog how much time and effort is wasted and what is gained in the long run. My hope is the white thick sunscreen that is impossible to spread and cost an arm and a leg, will in fact decrease the chance of cancer maybe but mainly as I feel envious of those other mothers I hope that my children one day take something away from those choices and just remember that the grass is not always greener on the other side!