Maybe Axel Rose was onto something!

As a child of the 80's I heard Guns n' Roses no less than a million times but as I walked away from my 2 year old this morning I thought of the song "Patience" and thought maybe they were onto something. I can freely admit I am a type A personality with high hopes to relax maybe when I die. I have a hard time enjoying a moment or slowing down. I am in constant go mode and even when I am sitting, I am plotting what I will do next, reading some "how to" book or making a list (I love a good list). But recently I began thinking about going back to work. My whole ambition in Europe was to use my new camera and take beautiful pictures of all the adventures and enjoy what would be some of the greatest times I may remember. Instead I find myself trapped inside praying my 2 year old will nap and completely ignoring a my sweet baby because I am trying to get her brother to...well do anything I ask. I feel consumed with trying to be a certain type of parent, one that supports a whole food movement, doesn't let her kids watch to much television or eat too many sweets. A parent that reads and is well versed but also is kind and fun with her children. That is indeed not what is happening though. I feel frustrated and edgy because I am trying too hard to do too much and going back to work just felt like an escape. So I am too indulge in being patient and trying to understand that life will come together as it needs too. I will wait for his naps to return but not inside. I will be patient enough to just sit and watch my 6 month old be small and smile. I will use patience in my potty training ideas. I can be patient with food and maybe even my husband. So as I sit here thinking of a project or something to do, I won't, even though I know I will, I guess I need patience there as well!!!